I can’t untangle self from my desires and all the sin that threatens to squish me against the wall of expectations… And I pray dearly and desperately for a heart change, and the transforming power of Jesus who has shown me again and again that it isn’t about me. And that He holds me. He…

the turning of a page, the beginning of a chapter

hmmm. I’m lost for words. I know we came here by grace. That is certain. I know that I’m weak, inadequate, foolish. I know I need grace right now. I know you have shown me grace. I know that this is super humbling. I know that I know nothing about what to do, or how…

“Why are you so afraid?”

I’ve been reading through the gospels over the past weeks, and after finishing Matthew, I headed into Mark. Last year we studied Mark as a campus, but I missed so much…so much. The stories are familiar, but they come on days when I need them…like yesterday and today. I read of a man who lived…

…maybe love is…

…maybe love is less about me, and more about Christ… ….maybe life is all about God and others…and not about me… …maybe love is living out of the gospel… telling the truth to myself about God’s grace, deliverance, freedom, acceptance, justification, and hope…and then telling the truth to others with my attitudes, actions, words, feelings…….

oh gentleness.

My heart has been made aware in recent days how much it lacks gentleness and rest. I so badly want a gentle and quiet spirit. At first I used to (and still do sometimes) think of this in relation to marriage only. But as I have been understanding more and more in the past few…

For the sake of holiness…

When I first got my purity ring at age 16, I only had one thing on my heart…and sadly my view of what purity was consequently was out of whack. I fell into the trap that a lot of girls within the church fall into…I believed that maintaining purity was only for the sake of…