When you need to remember that He uses it all…

“Record my lament;

list my tears on your scroll —

are they not in your record?”

{Psalm 56:8}

What do you do when your heart screams “NO!” and “What about me?” How do you pick up the “yes” of this morning, this new day of more waiting on the Lord?

 “My heart is in anguish within me;

the terrors of death assail me.

fear and trembling have beset me;

horror has overwhelmed me.

I said, ‘Oh, that I had the wings of a dove!

I would fly away and be at rest —

I would flee far away

and stay in the desert;

I would hurry to my place of shelter,

far from the tempest and storm.'”

{Psalm 55:4-8}

Do you ever wonder if He hears? Or if all your mumblings are just that…mumblings?

“But I call to God

and the Lord saves me,

Evening, morning, and noon

I cry out  in distress,

and He hears my voice.

He ransoms me unharmed

from the battle waged against me,

even though many oppose me.”

{Psalm 55:16-18}

Do you ever long to not just survive, but flourish?

“But I am like an olive tree

flourishing in the house of God;

I trust in the Lord’s unfailing love

for ever and ever.

I will praise you forever for what

you have done;

in Your name I will hope, for your

name is good.

I will praise you in the presence of

your saints.”

{Psalm 52:8-9}

Oh Lord, please give me, give us, eternal perspective. We need to see how you fill up all of the places of our souls, how you are the fullfillment of every soul desire. Help us to hope in your unfailing love. Too often I trust in my own love that fails. I cannot trust in my own love at all, only Your love…only Your love. I can’t fix this mess that threatens to overwhelm me. I can’t make it feel better forever, or understand where to go from here to avoid the pain. So, help me dwell with you in the pain, “going with the pain,” Finding Your love vibrant, passionate, faithful even when your beloved falls to fearing.  None of this feels ideal, or seems like there is an easy solution. I confess that I doubt Your love, I doubt that your love lasts forever.

But it is unfailing.

Help me please, oh please, to believe it.

Let it sink down into all the marrow of my being, all the wasteland places where your living water streams haven’t been allowed to go by my own selfishness.

In a world that fails and falls apart,

oh hold us together.

“7 Beloved, (Q)let us love one another, for love is from God, and (R)whoever loves has been born of God and knows God. (S)Anyone who does not love does not know God, because (T)God is love. In this the love of God was made manifest among us, that (U)God sent his only Son into the world, so that we might live through him. 10 In this is love, (V)not that we have loved God (W)but that he loved us and sent his Son to be (X)the propitiation for our sins. 11 Beloved, if God so loved us, we also ought to love one another. 12 (Y)No one has ever seen God; if we love one another, God abides in us and (Z)his love is perfected in us.

13 (AA)By this we know that we abide in him and he in us, because he has given us of his Spirit. 14 And(AB)we have seen and testify that (AC)the Father has sent his Son to be the Savior of (AD)the world.15 (AE)Whoever confesses that Jesus is the Son of God, God abides in him, and he in God. 16 So (AF)we have come to know and to believe the love that God has for us. (AG)God is love, and (AH)whoever abides in love abides in God, and God abides in him. 17 By this (AI)is love perfected with us, so that(AJ)we may have confidence for the day of judgment, because (AK)as he is so also are we in this world.18 There is no fear in love, but (AL)perfect love casts out fear. For fear has to do with punishment, and whoever fears has not (AM)been perfected in love. 19 (AN)We love because he first loved us. 20 (AO)If anyone says, “I love God,” and (AP)hates his brother, he is a liar; for he who does not love his brother whom he has seen cannot[a] love God (AQ)whom he has not seen. 21 And (AR)this commandment we have from him: (AS)whoever loves God must also love his brother.”

{1 John 4:7-21}

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