the deepest cry.

The snow spits wild outside. I eat chili reheated on our stove. And, I appreciate the fact that tonight, I’m going home. home. I was asked today by a friend if it was weird that my parents and sister moved while I was away at school. And as I’ve told others, it is weird but…

waking early

I’m not a “morning person” I can sleep for 12 hours or more and love it. But I’ve been thinking of lent, and thinking that I want to observe it this time. I think this as I wash dishes in our apartment sink, and feel the satisfaction of cleanliness. …Satisfied that He makes me clean….

lovely

I had a wonderful Valentines Day.  I got a call from my Mom wishing me a Happy Valentines Day (so sweet). I got to work and found, on my desk, a wonderful handmade Valentines Day card from Dearest. (smiles.smiles.smiles!) We got to hang out later that evening after he got done with practice, and I…

hunting for perfection

I’ve known since my childhood that I’m a “perfectionist.” Yeah, I’ve been one of those determined individuals who drives themselves into the ground looking for the BEST, most perfect thing. I produced  art (not really “creating” it), for the sake of becoming a perfect artist. I’ve pressed forward when I really should have let go…

I can’t untangle self from my desires and all the sin that threatens to squish me against the wall of expectations… And I pray dearly and desperately for a heart change, and the transforming power of Jesus who has shown me again and again that it isn’t about me. And that He holds me. He…

things I love

I love: (in no particular order, and with VARYING degrees of affection) bike-rides to the beach (from less than a mile) to see the sunset with people that are near and dear. feeling the sun glint over my eye lids while cool air rushes in through the open car window. food that is prettily arranged,…

{the Fourth Month tomorrow}

Tomorrow Dan and I will have been dating for four months. Lots of life has happened during that time. During the last month we’ve returned to school and our responsibilities here. We’ve taken walks, experienced deep complete forgiveness, talked life, eaten Dim Sum, taken pictures in a giant reflective bean, and wandered in a Chicago…